I was pretty excited about weigh-in day today because I’ve had a good week and because last week I missed my “lost 10% of your start weight” milestone by just 100 g (0.22 lb). So I was pretty sure that this week I was not only going to hit that milestone, but also my “lost 20kg” milestone. And I did. I lost 4.1 kg (9 lb) this week, bringing my current weight down to 169.1 kg (372.8 lb). My total weight loss is now 23.2 kg (51 lb). With 149 lbs more to lose, that means I’m 1/3 of the way there. That feels good.
According to Fitbit, I walked 90,381 steps, averaging 12,912 steps a day (and even doing nearly 9,000 on Sunday, my “day off”). Weight Watchers says I ate and average of 40 SmartPoints of food (my daily allowance is 56 SP), and MyFitnessPal measured it as an average of 1630 calories a day. I was active for 664 minutes last week, and averaged 6 hr 08 min of sleep.
In terms of managing my mental/emotional health, I meditated every day. I read a book for pleasure every day. I probably listened to music that makes me happy (I’m building a Spotify playlist) every day, but I’m not tracking that yet, so I can’t be sure. I am feeling pretty upbeat and motivated, and I think taking a little bit of time throughout the day to do these things is helping.
It’s also helping that my wife has gotten much more motivated about her own health and weight loss (her vacation is over) and even more supportive of my efforts. Sometimes it’s obvious things like encouraging each other, talking through options and sharing ideas, asking for help when we’re feeling down, etc. but it’s also little things like waking up at the same time. It’s so much harder when you feel like you’re doing it alone, and I’m grateful for the support I’m getting from my wife and family, and from the people I’m getting to know online (esp. through the blog and YouTube). It all helps, and it feels good knowing that I may be helping others, too.
I’m still evaluating a few habit tracking apps and trying to build a better daily routine. With the summer holidays over and life getting busier, it’s really important that I try to get better at managing my time. I feel better at the end of the day when I can look back and see the things that I’ve accomplished. It’s slow going, in part because it seems like as soon as I start looking at all the things I should be doing, there’s really no end to them, and also because I’m ridiculously bad at judging how long it will take me to do the things on my list. Especially cooking! How can it be that a recipe says it takes 45 minutes — 15 minutes prep, 30 minutes cooking time — and it takes me 2 1/2 hours? I suspect that at least some of the recipe writers are full of crap, but I accept that I’m also slow and disorganized. But I’ll keep going, and I’ll get better.
So to get back to the weigh-in and my big loss this week, I’m looking at all the numbers, and there’s nothing jumping out at me as being all that different to a lot of previous weeks. I had a good week in terms of food, exercise, and mental/emotional health, but I’m not convinced that it was so much better than other weeks that I should’ve lost so much more weight. If I’m totally honest, I think I gamed the weigh-in. I didn’t eat breakfast, but that’s nothing new. I always skip breakfast on weigh-in days. That’s one way I regularly game the system. And this week I also chose not to hydrate after my walk. I don’t think I mentioned it on the blog, but a couple of weeks ago, I felt like my weight at weigh-in was a bit high because I’d drank over a liter of water that morning. That’s an extra kilo (2.2 pounds) of weight. So this week, the only thing I drank in the 4 1/2 hours between waking up and weighing in was one cup of coffee. Because I was really, really thirsty, I took a water bottle, and chugged it as soon as I sat down after weigh-in. I also ate a protein bar, because I was hungry after skipping breakfast. That is all a bunch of bullshit and nonsense, and I’m going to stop it.
I know I’m not the only one that does it, but I’m a grown-ass man, and it’s silly to rely on tricks (especially unhealthy ones) to get a better number of the scales one day a week. Yeah, I really wanted to hit those two milestones this week. But the thing is, I only had to lose 900 grams (2 pounds) to do it, and I was pretty damned confident that I’d done well enough during the week that it was going to happen. But my little dehydration stunt was an ace up my sleeve. Because, you know, how horrible would it have been to hit my 20 kg weight loss milestone next week instead of this week? 😉 And so now, even though I’m almost 100% sure that I would’ve hit those milestones anyway, I feel like it’s not a completely honest and legitimate measure of my weight. So from next week, I will eat breakfast and drink water before weigh-in. No more bullshit games with the scale. What I’m trying to accomplish is too important for that kind of silliness.