I’m nearly there, y’all. I’ve been eating well for the last five days or so, and I think if I can just drag my ass out of bed at an unreasonable hour and get busy walking, I’ll be able to get my little morning routine fully back on track. It’s been really nice sleeping in and waking up naturally, but 5am is just about the coolest part of the day, and once the sun comes up over the ridge, the temperature starts climbing and the walk gets twice as hard.
I know that once I get into the rhythm of doing it again, there will be things about it that I like. The waves and greetings with neighbours exercising and walking their dogs. The birds. The smell of freshly-cut grass. Sitting on the back porch enjoying my coffee while the rest of the family sleeps. But I don’t think there will ever be a time when I don’t think that getting up at 5am sucks. I shouldn’t be whining, because I know that a lot of people have to get up even earlier and get ready for work or all sorts of other things that are SO MUCH WORSE than going for a walk and then sitting on my ass for the next hour meditating, reading a book, drinking coffee, eating breakfast, etc. But I’m whining anyway. Because getting up at 5am sucks. Boo. Hoo. Hoo. 😦
But I got up at 5am this morning. Even though my alarm was set for 6am. But I didn’t go for a walk. I got up ridiculously early in the morning to go to…THE DOCTOR. Not because I’m sick or hurt, but just to get a check-up. Which I have not done for several years. Because I am an idiot. But today, I did it. I went in, explained that I was trying to lose weight, and that even though I was a little late with the whole “consult your doctor before you begin” step of every health and fitness plan EVER, I’d really appreciate it if she’d check me out and make sure I wasn’t going to accidentally kill myself by cutting back on fried foods and booze, eating more fruits and vegetables, and getting up ridiculously early in the morning to walk.
It turns out that I probably don’t have to worry about any of that. And now I know that my blood pressure is fine, I’m a couple inches shorter than I was 10 years ago, and my heart’s probably okay, but she sent the ECG printout to a cardiologist just to be sure. And tomorrow morning I’ll get up at 5 again so that I can get a blood test, and I’m thinking that if the weather cooperates, I might try going for a walk afterwards. You know, since I’ll be up anyway.
So now that I’m feeling all righteous because I went in for a check-up, of course I’m going to say that if it’s been as many years for you as it has for me, you should give it a shot. I know there are, like, fifty reasons why you can’t or won’t or just don’t want to, but I hope you’ll at least think about finding a doctor who can help you lose weight and get healthier.
I hadn’t seen this particular doctor before, but so far, so good. And if she doesn’t work out, I’ll try another one. The way I’m looking at this is that I’ve tried doing it on my own, and I haven’t been successful. This time around, I’m doing what I can to get more people on my team who can help me get it done. And if that means doing things like going to the doctor, then I’m just going to have to suck it up and do it.